As I opened the floodgates at 4:30AM
and let the fear flow in,
a lot of things about my life make more sense.
- Like what I’m doing with this website, for instance.
In later posts I’m going to be sharing some of my fears, here,
and my responses to them,
and this website is the perfect setting in which to do that. This setting testifies:
- I’ve been working on this for years.
- My fears may be life-changing, but they occur within a structure of faith which sustains me.
- Another thing that is clearer now is why I have so repeatedly adopted the persona of trickster within my Quaker meeting community. The message I bring is so odd, so outside the bounds of consensus reality that it helps that my community is accustomed to hearing odd things from me.
For years I’ve been saying Industrial Civilization will soon fall as a result of it own success/excess. (Joanna Macy calls it the end of “The Industrial Growth Society.”)
`Til now, as I have shared my message, I have been unsure if this transition would reach a crisis point in my lifetime (I’m 69). Now I feel clear it will happen before the end of Obama’s term as president, despite the best efforts of heads of state around the world.
What changed my sense of timing was discovering Paul Gilding.
- He wrote the book, The Great Disruption: Why the Climate Crisis Will Bring On the End of Shopping and the Birth of a New World
- He was head of International Greenpeace
- He hangs out with world leaders
- He talks about what climate change has already done to Australia
- He forcefully, sanely, coherently delivers his message in this TED talk.
given that, last night, I crossed the threshold of viscerally acknowledging my fears, I want to share what happens next with my community. I offer you a view of my life, in its closing years, as a gift to my community.
(This gift may have more value to those who know me. Readers without the background of knowing my lived life may find this even crazier than my friends do.)
To my friends, my community, I say “watch me,” from a safe distance, if you like. I’m going out ahead into the fear. It may be that really bad things will happen to me. Like the first person in a company of people going down a jungle path, I offer the risks I am taking as a gift to you, testing the way ahead. If I am felled, you will properly consider another way.
Or it may be, if I am right, that going into our fears is where we all need to go for greater sanity in the near term, and greater resilience later on. It may be, as Paul Gilding says, that the adrenaline rush I am now experiencing is what our culture will need in order to move into the Great Disruption and to move still further, into a mature and intelligent biosphere: Gaia.
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April 2015. Here’s an eight-minute video clip, well produced, of an insider-trader, a former manager at JPMorgan:
He supports Paul Gilding’s underlying premise. He has stepped just barely outside his former Wall Street life, set up a little think tank, and is trying to get Wall Street to reform itself.
More and more I read articles published by Wall Street Journal and their websites talking about how folks on Wall Street are finally starting to see what their mischief is doing, to our little island home we call earth, and to us who live here. There is hope…