I am being myself here, on my website, in a way I find very fulfilling. “This is what I need to do!”
Now, I have to admit, when I can get any distance on my material at all, when I imagine seeing what I have written with the eyes of others:
- It looks pretty confusing
- It’s a stretch to imagine Richard’s ramblings are part of a coherent picture.
My dear friends, I forgive you for not reading this closely.
I recognize that you may experience what you thought was my meaning dissolve before your eyes.
I really need to do this, to get it out there. And I am doing it, most of all to satisfy my own inner imperatives.
Don’t worry too much about it, at this point. Know that I am content with myself.
Here’s a summary of what’s happened on this website since my last summary, on March 30.
The month began with me introducing you-all to a meeting of my inner committee. We were arguing about whether I was creating expectations in my readers I would not follow through on.
We will wait and see who wins the argument, but the real accomplishment, from my whole-committee point of view, is that I am beginning to share my inner process. I think that’s important because it will form the foundation for conversations about “character” and “personal integration” and “guidance,” which I hope will come later.
Already on 4/13 the inner-committee faction that “had a plan” looks like it has thrown us into a funk.
.: “Our lives give us the same lessons over and over until we learn them.”
.: OK, I’m trying. Hopefully, having you watching will help.
I had opened the site to comments, and immediately I got two great ones! On 4/24 I responded to them with a statement of my faith that, even in the face of my confusion, that I am guided and am making “progress” as best I’m able.
This provoked another wonderful comment, asking how we, as individuals, might use an understanding of Gaia as strength and solace as we confront the inevitable losses that are the lot of living things.
I replied on 4/28.
If I thought I should understand what I am doing, I’d be worried.
I believe I am unfolding the mystery of my life.
I offer it publicly because I believe my experience has relevance for many of us, connected as we are in the unified field of Gaia.
And, as I said last week, I believe “something big is happening,” even as we speak.