Whew!
I am being myself here, on my website, in a way I find very fulfilling. “This is what I need to do!”
Now, I have to admit, when I can get any distance on my material at all, when I imagine seeing what I have written with the eyes of others:
- It looks pretty confusing
- It’s a stretch to imagine Richard’s ramblings are part of a coherent picture.
My dear friends, I forgive you for not reading this closely.
I recognize that you may experience what you thought was my meaning dissolve before your eyes.
I really need to do this, to get it out there. And I am doing it, most of all to satisfy my own inner imperatives.
Don’t worry too much about it, at this point. Know that I am content with myself.
Here’s a summary of what’s happened on this website since my last summary, on March 30.
The month began with me introducing you-all to a meeting of my inner committee. We were arguing about whether I was creating expectations in my readers I would not follow through on.
We will wait and see who wins the argument, but the real accomplishment, from my whole-committee point of view, is that I am beginning to share my inner process. I think that’s important because it will form the foundation for conversations about “character” and “personal integration” and “guidance,” which I hope will come later.
Already on 4/13 the inner-committee faction that “had a plan” looks like it has thrown us into a funk.
.: “Our lives give us the same lessons over and over until we learn them.”
.: OK, I’m trying. Hopefully, having you watching will help.
I had opened the site to comments, and immediately I got two great ones! On 4/24 I responded to them with a statement of my faith that, even in the face of my confusion, that I am guided and am making “progress” as best I’m able.
This provoked another wonderful comment, asking how we, as individuals, might use an understanding of Gaia as strength and solace as we confront the inevitable losses that are the lot of living things.
I replied on 4/28.
If I thought I should understand what I am doing, I’d be worried.
I believe I am unfolding the mystery of my life.
I offer it publicly because I believe my experience has relevance for many of us, connected as we are in the unified field of Gaia.
And, as I said last week, I believe “something big is happening,” even as we speak.
Love,
Richard
Gaia Voices 
Hey, Richard–
How nice to spend First Day morning with you during Adult Ed. You are a gem.
It’s taken me a while to understand even the basics of how this website works, but our preparation for Adult Ed offered me another opportunity to come here and have a second or third look-see.
What catches my eye in this particular post is this: I really need to do this, to get it out there. And I am doing it, most of all to satisfy my own inner imperatives.
I consistently hear you affirm this… this “imperative,” and so I am glad you are being faithful to it. What you do with your work and service as a Gaia Troubadour doesn’t have to make sense to any of us or even to you. What matters is that you be faithful to what you’ve been given… (and I myself need to be reminded of this from time to time!)
Well, now that I’ve had my look-see and I understand the blog part of this website, I’ve added you to my “feeds,” so hopefully I can check back as things evolve with you, especially if we miss each other at meeting.
Blessings,
Liz Opp, The Good Raised Up